Halfway

I never understood it before
But now I think I know
What I once thought was a horror
Has now become so close

I never understood why
People would do such a thing
But as it glides with a sigh
My skin begins to sing

What type of song, I don’t know
Whether of pain or relief
Red like blood or white as snow
What’s with all this grief?

I don’t do it for attention
But I don’t want to be alone
I know I’m not the only one
But I’m still on my own

It’s not that I don’t get love
My friends are good with that
It’s just that I don’t get enough
When my heart’s squished flat

I can talk to my friends online and such,
But it’s just not the same
It helps a bit but not enough
I’m still lost in the pain

It’s not that I have given up
I’m still fighting strong
The fact I’m alive is proof enough
But I’ve been on this road too long

It may seem I’ve given up
But I’ve just given in
My emotions have run amok
My heart is now worn thin

I don’t know how to end such
A poem than to say,
Please don’t worry too much
I’m only dead halfway.